I have the drive to do it. I have the ambition. I even have a pretty alright starter resume complete with training and experience. What I don't have is the ability to drop everything in one place, and go to L.A. or NY to audition for everything under the sun until I get lucky. I decided to start my family first, and then pursue my dreams. I do not regret this. I look at my kids, and realize that, even with as crazy as they make me at times, I never want to know what life without them or their dad would be like. I would never go back and do anything differently. That being said, I do wish there were more opportunities at my disposal out here. There are auditions out here. Heck, one of the biggest shows on TV is filmed just 5 hours away from here. The thing is, I have no help. My husband is active duty military, and no one in my life seems to understand this dream I have had since I was 8 years old. I want to act. I want to get lucky enough to get cast on a TV show before I'm 50. I want to make people laugh. I want to make people cry. I want to do all of this while still being a very active mom. Is that possible? I Know I would not be the only person in history to pull it off.
I am obviously just thinking out loud, but I think I have more than what it takes. I am not some bimbo who wants to act because she was once told by some sleazy old Sears photographer that she should be a model. I want to bring scripts to life; bring my own script ideas to life. I want to tell stories and be a part of the art form that is film. I want to be someone else between "action" and "cut"...Mike will be on shore duty, again, when I'm 30...maybe I can make it happen, then...I sometimes spread myself too thin, and forget that I count for something, too. Maybe I can volunteer at the VB theatre. There's always amateur night at the Funny Bone. It will happen...I just don't know when or how...but I do know that it will.
...I just need a boost.
I am obviously just thinking out loud, but I think I have more than what it takes. I am not some bimbo who wants to act because she was once told by some sleazy old Sears photographer that she should be a model. I want to bring scripts to life; bring my own script ideas to life. I want to tell stories and be a part of the art form that is film. I want to be someone else between "action" and "cut"...Mike will be on shore duty, again, when I'm 30...maybe I can make it happen, then...I sometimes spread myself too thin, and forget that I count for something, too. Maybe I can volunteer at the VB theatre. There's always amateur night at the Funny Bone. It will happen...I just don't know when or how...but I do know that it will.
...I just need a boost.
Did not know this about you.. It's a tough world to get into but it's possible. I'm proud of you for choosing to raise your family first and I think anyone would commend you for that. But that doesn't mean you have to completely put your dreams on hold. I believe you can do it.
ReplyDeleteThank you. I needed to hear that. I just saw a girl I went to school with on a collectors cup at 7-11 (she's playing Sif in Thor) and it reminded me that I am still no where near there.
ReplyDeleteSome local theaters here have children's programs as well. Not sure what they offer where you are but it is definitely an idea :)
ReplyDeleteVirginia Beach has a small theatre that I want to start volunteering and auditioning for plays, at. I've had most of my training in film, but I really enjoy theatre, as well. And it will give me experience and some exposure.
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